My Love Will Be Gone Forever

I sit on my porch patio
watching the stars and the moon
above the sky
I keep thinking of all those special times
My mind keeps going to the good days
I wonder what kind of pain he went through
what kind of thinking that he must have thought
I stare to the bright lights
to the place where we met
the place that had a history of many unknowns
I feel my eyes fill with tears
The haunting feeling that's deep in my heart
I don't know how to live with this pain
He was so good to me in many ways
many ways for me not to forget him
I try to move on with my life
But there's something holding me back
holding me tight and never letting go
these memories will never leave
he will never come back alive
and I need to go on with my life
My heart needs to go on as well
he didn't deserve the torture he got
and I wanted him to have the best
a life that he belongs
A life that last a long time
but he will never get it now
My heart is broken
yet, it's full
filled with emotion of pride
thankful for the chance to know an angel

Originally written in 1999 and revised in 2002
Dedicated to David Alvarez, died in 1998